society

As I am, I am not right.
Not worthy of consideration for society.
The way I perceive the world
is not meant for society.

I would like to do my own thing.
Not letting myself get influenced by other things.

But in this stream of demands,
how and when we have to do what,
how can you not drown eventually?

I am constantly trapped
between what others want of me
and what I want to do.

I am constantly trapped
between my perfect, society compliant version
and the flawed, emotional person
I actually am.

If I conform,
then I bury my inner self,
destroy my personality,
turn into a soulless zombie.

If I conform,
I will perish.

If I am like I am,
then I do not fit into the picture.
I act inappropriately,
I do not meet the demands.

If I am like I am,
I will perish.

So how can I achieve
the dream of society accepting me
while I stay well?