remembering
every night

trying to
and failing to
forget

wandering around
every day
with this inner baggage

so many words
left unsaid
so many feelings
went unheard

where to go
with all of this
guilt and shame

how to heal
this deathly disease
rotting everything inside

it keeps eating
until there is nothing left
but a lifeless soul

how to recover
from this pain
and become alive again?